A Little Hello + Personal Note

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It’s been awhile since my last post so I just wanted to say hello! I’m still here!

This month has been crazy and is about to get even more so. I’ve been invited to be a vendor at Simply Wine Fest this year which takes place on March 21st on the CBS lot in Los Angeles. Tickets are on sale now! They expect to have around 15oo guests at the venue and from the video I watched of last year’s production, it’s sure to be a ball!

But in April, I have a trade show, Artisanal LA, which is what I’m most nervous about. It’ll be my first trade show.  No matter how hard I try to cross my t’s and dot my i’s, I always feel like there must be something I’m missing that I’ll get called out on. Is that crazy or super normal for someone who wears a bunch of hats? Hmm…

On a more personal note, these past few weeks have gotten me thinking about the way I work and attempt to tackle… well, just about everything. Whether it’s work, play, or people… I noticed some things about myself that I really want to improve upon. I’ve thought about the saying “The way you do anything is the way you do everything.” That really resonates with me because I find it to be so true in my case. And how exactly do I tend to do most things? With hesitance. I’m just now starting to place my finger on why that might be. I think it has something to do with getting easily disheartened or feeling like the things I attempt to do will only reveal myself as a phony or not good enough. It’s really silly in a way. The funny part is how I came to this conclusion. I was watching The Voice. Yes, leave it to a show like The Voice, to give me the epiphany I’ve been needing.

I’m a little behind with this season so I’m still watching the blind auditions on Hulu. In the first few episodes, I noticed just how much all these mega-star judges grovel at contestants’ feet, trying to score them for their own team. They get so vulnerable and desperate, exclaiming “I WANT YOU!” only to be shut down… and then go after the next guy/girl they want with the same amount of vigor. Time and time again. And it made me think about how I would be affected if I were in their position, trying to pick people to be on my team that decided to go with someone else. I would feel… so rejected and disheartened. Why is that!? I mean, poor Adam Levine went through the first 2 or 3 episodes of blind auditions getting NO takers for his team. Still, he kept fighting hard for the vocalists he wanted. I was really inspired by that.

And then there was the girl who auditioned last year and had zero chairs turn for her. The judges told her where to make improvements and to come back the following season. I feel like a lot contestants get this advice… and I’m sure there are many who don’t even attempt to return. But this girl came back and got ALL four chairs to turn. Yeah, I was crying. You know, sometimes you fail at something because you just weren’t ready for it at the time. Then you get to werk… and you make it happen the next time.

In the end, it’s the fighters that move ahead and succeed, not the people who get bogged down by every rejection. And I give people such mad respect for handling failure gracefully rather than not trying at all.

So that’s what I want to work on with myself. Just putting it all out there as much as I can. It scares me more to think about what I would miss out on if I didn’t approach things this way. And now that I’ve put it in writing, I feel so much more accountable for this. Phew!

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